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In a few days time, I'm gonna venture into something that I rarely do. I'm like soo gonna get screwed for something not entirely my fault. Fine lah. Maybe it's my fault lah. But sheesh. It ain't easy. Maybe I'm not the only one going through this and I'm like complaining so much about it. But I'm not a prodigy like Mozart obviously. And I'm not a magician either. Okie. Maybe this is something for human beings to do after all. So I can do it. I think. I must. Fine. Whatever it is I'll still get screwed as a section cos of missing people. Woohoo!

band

Why are doing this to us? Why do we only fear things when they come? Come on, shouldn't we have more faith in ourselves? Maybe we really not good enough to stand up to the situation but it's not as if doing last minute work could have help much. No matter how much practise you have in a day, it just doesn't work. It's more of a long-term thing? Ain't it? We all know it's obvious things can be accomplished in one day. But that's not even the right thing to do in the first place. It should have been builded up from each practise. So when the time comes we would not falter like now. I'm saying this bunch of bullshit. I know my section may not be the best. But it has put in effort. And I'm sure everyone else's section did too. All I know is a day is not the time enough for miracles to happen. And we're just working for the second day? Does it really matters? After all it's the concert that matters and not some bloody people visiting us.

thoughts

If only you were me, if only you knew what I feel. You would understand.

bad feeling

I'm currently having serious side effects from my last experience of being screwed. I wish I would be seriously ill by tomorrow either mentally and physically. I already got the feeling of being sick mentally. Never mind. I think I can withstand bigger blows. The most I'lll heal over the last few weeks of holiday. Oh ya. And my homework. Argh.

jc band fest

Went to the jc band fest yesterday. Saw so many people that I read through blogs and some of the seniors. There was this song titled at the persian market where they played to the tune of that SHE persian cat song. They even sing it but it was not in chinese. I wonder even if it's english at all. Most of the time I was feeling horrible as my molars grinded each other making my jaw having a hard time. My eyes felt as if they were going off control any moment. We sat at the front row there was this bar infront of us where I had to ducked under to see a view of the whole band. The band looks minute from my seat so I could not really see the faces at all. And that minister of MOE was there, Tharman Sha-dunno-what. So there were four bands named after famous composers like James Barnes, Claude T Smith, Alfred Reed and Phillipe Sparke. The concert was rather nice but there was not much of extra enetertainment other than playing. It's like a strictly concert affair. But overall it's rather nice.=)

Today wake up at 7 cos band was at 845. And watched abit of mtv and saw Naohito's thankful everynight video. Aww... He looks dashing clean-shaven man. Band was long today and doze off while watching tv just now and now my wrist hurts. Actually most of my joints do hurt. I'm weak. And turning old too early.

masterpiece

This masterpiece was created by the two finest artists of today. They are Cheryl Koh and Ang Liwee. =) The picture depicts the complexity of human nature over money. And how good tramples over evil. A very exquisite piece indeed. =)

pictures

this is my mostest desired erasers at the moment. i doubt singapore has any of these though.


my fave chinese singer ever. the person who made me buy my first chinese album.=) she is way cool man. see the way she carries her guitar and sing. her dress sense is super wooper cool.


here's my first crush that appeared on screen. and also my beloved idol. and i would be thrilled if i could marry him. but obviously i'm dreaming and i'm totally aware of that universally-known fact.

oprah winfrey

Today watched lots of tv as usual. And I watch the oprah winfrey show. She always love to bring those issues like children diseases and illnesses and heart-breaking and miraculous stories onto the show. The first story was about this girl who could not feel any pain. I remembered a line from R-17 saying that God made us feel pain to keep us alive or else everyone could have died as they wish. And that was rather true. This girl got hurt and lost her eyesight because of her inability to feel pain. She suffered second degree burns from a lightbulb cos she could not feel the heat. She was having a broken jaw for a long time without knowing. If she was ill, there were not symptoms to be shown or she could feel. Thus her parents would never know when to bring her to the doctor and stuff. So there must be a person to watch her 24/7. Then they discussed about children who suffers from turette syndrome. And these kids who normally have obssesive compulsive disorder as well. And they show this home video of a girl telling her mother how bad school was as everybody just mock at her of her twitches and stuff. And the look on her face was awfully painful. And turette(whatever you spell it) syndrome is something that can't be cured but only can be helped a little by taking medication. Their weird actions are just simply things beyond their control. And the last story was about the girl with the mermaid syndrome who eventually experience a miracle and had her legs seperated and is able to like other normal poeple I supposed. Cos people down with this syndrome normally would pass away in the womb and one day after they're born. Wait, that is not the last story. The last story was about these cancer-stricken patients who were hit by hurricane katrina were able to transfer to st. luke's and continue their treatment. So actually love and compassion is spreading around this world. So heartwarming eh? This is soapish line man. HAHAHAHAHAHA.-marcie's laugh.

quizzes

You Are Japanese Food

Strange yet delicious.Contrary to popular belief, you're not always eaten raw.

What Kind of Food Are You?

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing.You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes.And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad.You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

How Is Your Inner Child?

On Average, You Would Sell Out For

$1,039,027

At What Price Would You Sell Out?

Arty Kid

Whether you were a drama freak or an emo poet, you definitely were expressive and unique. You're probably a little less weird these days - but even more talented!

Who Were You In High School?

You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!

How Machiavellian Are You?

You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected. It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well. At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.

What Temperment Are You?

firstest post

I was damn slack today man. After the pathetic sectionals in school. There were only like two persons who went. I don't think it's exactly a sectional in my opinion. We only did techinicals and never touch on pieces. I supposed tomorrow should be around the same thing. Our attention can't be kept on the same thing for too long. After that I went home alone bought my lunch. Watched tv and went into a very very deep sleep. Until six plus. My head was aching like hell from the long sleep I had. I totally just wasted the whole bloody day on sleeping. My homework remains untouch. And I forgot to call my dad and log into msn in the afternoon. I'm bloody ignorant. I've currently have two flowery masterpieces using my ugly drawing with my I must say nice colouring. =) I do have confidence in myself for some areas I suppose. Yesterday I went to the better toy store and show small music boxes that plays the Beatles' songs. So nice. They also have John Lennon's imagine. They got this handles where you turn the whole music thingy and gets it rolling. So you can actually turn it to the tempo you like. Sometimes I really do wish I was abit richer and smarter and everything. But yet, I know there are many people around the world having worse conditions than me. I should be contented enough. At least I have a proper face with all my senses intact. I can see, smell, touch, hear and taste. I can move around with my legs. I do really wonder at times if psychologists could actually define what people are just having hard times to cope with and depression. Cos if people find it too difficult to cope with their lives, obviously they'll develop the symptoms of depression. How do they know that the person is actually undergoing depression instead of meeting one of their obstacles in life? It's so hard to say. Maybe having mental illnesses is just another excuse or consolation that humans have. But it's not as easy to strike out of the whole thing as you wish to do. It's harder than it seems to go through times like that. When thoughts of suicides just keep knocking the door of your mind. No matter how hard you try to cover the sound of knocking it just doesn't work. And very soon you would see self-mutilation as a relief. And very soon it beocmes a kind of drug that you cannot live without. Mumbling some stupid crap again.