Just watched the finals of Singapore Idol. They can never break away from a cheesy original song. It must be a song with oh-so-inspirational lyrics and that poppy instrumentation that suppose to make your hair stand with the choir and strings. Yeah. i hope Jonathan wins! He sang Should I stay and Chasing cars. The first was my favourite song in the pass. He always sings my favourite songs in the past. His song choices comes from the period when I was sec 1 and 2. Hady was good but his voice is like too perfect and too versatile that it's like it's too forgetable too. But i got a strong feeling he will win. It's like a mould of Singapore Idol. And he's perfect for it. I tried studying today. But I got stuck onto the tv that shows delicious food and other people eating it instead of me, and pretty designers and clothes. Now I know why Shiquan is crazy about Daniel Vosovic. He is really cute. I wished he wasn't guy. He looks super straight. He should not be gay. He looks nothing like George Michael and Elton John. He got that Adrien Brody aura. Tsk tsk. Shouldn't be ranting about stuff like this when the o's are oh-so-near.

"You want everything to be just like
The stories that you read but never write
You gotta learn to live and live and learn
You gotta learn to give and wait your turn
Or you'll get burned" -taken from Together by The Raconteurs

Anyways, I got no idea why I find Jack White sexy. I'm kinda surprised how I ever did get that thought. I think it's kinda scaring me. Anyway he looks suave playing the guitar in his cool image. Prelims is scary. The principal loves to talk non-stop. I'm not blaming her, of course she's afraid that the school will slip into a all-time academic low with our not so pleasant results. But I don't mind listening to her long hours of lectures if she gave us chairs to sit. It's like my butt flesh has runaway and my butt bones are experiencing friction with the wooden floorboards. It's like super disintegrating to the body. It's so painful I'd rather stand during those times. Maybe not. Você é um ladrão. Por que deve você estar no outro lado da cerca para a apreciar?

girlfreind

Pictures of my prettyful girlfriend.



This picture is from Honey and Clover. She's so sweet neh. Aaaaah. And wavy hair. Woohoo~ She's a real cutie pie. Lalalala~ It seems like I'm a real lesbian.


So here is Satoshi to balance my sexual preferences. So at least I'm a bisexual now.

My heart is aching and it feels heavy. Literally. I'm afraid for everything. Even though I know I'm prepared, but the fear of not being able to remember what a studied and apply it seem to sweep over me like a huge..storm surge? There's so many things I wished I had done earlier. All these are just regrets. No going back. Now I'm just afraid that this would repeat again before the big days come. I don't know. I did some math questions just now and I kept having careless mistakes. It's disappointing to see yourself committing one careless mistake after another. Why did I ever turn this way? I wish I knew. The fear and anxiety just keeps mounting up inside. I feel like being part of a rock band now. Be involve with the booze and drugs and do music like nobody's business. And can't be bothered by insignificant stuff like results. Naaah. I don't wanna be that type of rock star. I don't look like one anyways.I feel like sitting on the window sill with the wind blowing over me and get embraced by it and even swept away by it and POOM. Blood flows everywhere. From my head, I bet there's like very little brain juice to like spurt out. I'm not suicidal. I'm really not. I'm just being graphical.

I'm stuck in this loopy mood now. Everything sort of goes into painful slow motion. Everthing seems to be draggy. The world seems to collapsing apart. I seem to be the biggest loser in the world.


NICE SONG. melodious and mellow guitars. sweet.=)

girlfriend

I wish I was tons more hardworking than whatever I am now. Everytime I finish one chapter I thought I'll just rest and close my eyes for awhile. But the next second..I just Zzzzz. This happens very often when I sit on my sofa. Then the wind starts blowing in and everything is so breezy while I close my eyes. And I'll soon fall into deep slumber. But the time I wake up. It's like God knows when lah. Today gonna introduce my girlfriend! Woohoo.

See! So prettyful neh. My idol neh.