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I think my brain would have shrink to nothing by now. My mom says those who watch tv for long hours would get brain damage or something and it does something bad to your ability to memorise. I also watch from somewhere that if you sit after eating your hips will get wider or basically you just get fatter lah. I do that very very often. The joints of my bones crack sometimes. I think my body is getting older, I think I'm having a body of a 66 year old (ahaha). My room is so messy I think I'm slightly embarrassed by it. Mass movement is taking place in the form of papers and files on my table and sofa. Even though I managed to clear out a lot of stuff but visibly there's like no difference man. I still got toys take a huge part of my cupboards but I don't bear to throw them away. I'm afraid I'll still want to play with it. But obviously I won't need to play with it. But I'm still scared I'll need it. I want Konapun toys! HAHA.

Bonnie Pink - Under the sun

This song is so beautiful I think I listened to it like a million times.

Laundry

This movie is like damn beautiful. It's about the relationship that blossoms between this mentally disabled guy (cos he fell into a manhole) and this girl who is emotionally hurt from her first relationship cos she was a lover of a married man unknowingly. The whole story is real sweet cos everything inside there is so innocent and yet sad at times cos of certain events. But it has a happy ending anyways. =) Happy endings are rare I think. Especially in these kind of movies cos usually they tend to end on a tragic note. It sorts of leave a warm fuzzy feeling in your heart and make you kinda happy and suddenly grateful for everything. As if life will turn beautiful you know. I might be a little exaggerating, but I really think everyone should watch this if they have a chance. =) The pace of it might be a tad slow to some people, but it's quite direct so you can feel it instead of figuring what the hell is going on. Spread love all around man. Wooo~

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Next year seems pretty gloomy as I drag my baggage of fear with me. I should really start going to the temple to pray more or something. The past year have not really been exactly smooth and the coming year seems to continue that tradition. I'm grateful for many things and I'm not grateful for many things too. I really think I should start praying or something. Like totally seriously. Haha.

rockstar

My dream currently is to be a rockstar. Since I'm like South-East Asian, I would become like a South-East Asian Bono and help the people in Cambodia and Myanmar. My songs would advocate humanity. AHAHA. I write cool songs like how my favourite bands does it. I watched a travel programme just now and it showed those Cambodia people living in areas that are heavily peppered with grenades and bombs below their feet. Once they step onto those areas, the bombs just blast their bodies apart resulting in many of them to loose their legs, arms or sight or even all. These parents having so many children despite their own disabilities so as to collect more food from the welfare. It's a warped sense of logic but yet totally understandable under those conditions. All you really want is survival, satisfaction boils down to the simplicity in life, just fufilling your basic needs. All you really want is food, water and shelter. Some of the children are down with Aids and they have to travel miles and miles for treatment in the city yet not fully aware of their condition. Those children can be easily contented and feels true happiness. Maybe we shouldn't have so much education, maybe we shouldn't be developed. It only taught us to seek what happiness means and never letting us to experience it. It's sad. Why must we be bogged down with so much stuff. Why everything seems so complex. Why must people hurt people. Why must people lie. Why can't they think of the consequences.

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I'm pretty damn flustered over the fact that my windows media player can't show the song titles of the cd I insert into the computer. Aaaaah. I don't wanna see track 1 and 2 etc I wanna see real song titles! Without the trouble of typing myself of course. Songs come in various languages and I can't possibly type all languages. I hate seeing no exact title man. I swear I do not have obsessive compulsive disorder. However, I feel I can't function properly when such a minor thing happens. It's as if a part of me is but into the blender to blend and blend. It's just frustrating man. I may not be the neatest person but I have a thing when a certain order is like disrupted. It's like it's circling in my system. ARGH. I get upset over other trivial matters, like not having a complete uno set though I try my best to ignore it. Me not being able to find my game of life though I try to convince myself I don't really need it (which is true). And also a huge pink luminous star going missing really puts me into the "something-is-missing-and-I-can't-live-mode".

The C people

These people and wonderfully talented and mostest of the time easy on the eyes too. I was bored. Thus I had to even find the photos and do this.


Chris Martin
One of the sexiest vegetarian around on earth. One of the person who holds strongly on the belief of making trade fair that he even wrote the words make trade fair on the back of his hand. The results makes it looks like an awful tattoo but it grabs people's attention anyways. Now he is into coloured bands on his fingers to bring the message across instead using his "tattoo". Talented. Way talented. Write good songs, songs well and plays the guitar and piano. Married to Gwyneth Paltrow and has a daughther named Apple. Some think the name is ridiculous but I think it's better than the names of other celebrities' kids. I can't remember but I think Jamie Oliver's daugthers were named honey poppies and something else. Sounds like some sweet fairy kinda names and there was one which sounded like a frog.


Charlize Theron
Pretty lady pretty lady! She is veh veh elegant. A fantastic actress, won an oscar and the only lady I approve of being able to be with Keanu Reeves. I didn't really like seeing Trinity with Neo. But I am totally fine with her and Keanu Reeves. She acts well even in sucky movies. AHA. I think she got quite and past and she's from South Africa. South Africa got quite a lot of nice people eh eh eh. Hoho.


Corinne Bailey Rae
Her songs are really good. Her voice is soulful and soothing. When you listen to her songs with your eyes closed, you really feel like you are being brought into a total different setting. My vision is just a small cafe with a nice cup of tea as you erm... gaze at the little wonders of people through the windows. That kinda vision pops into my head. Some songs makes me wanna sway too. If you notice when she performs she sways pretty much. Her swaying is quite unique. Hahaha. I think she's pretty too with nice curly hair. I think she wanted John Legend to look at her during their duet you know. But he is so mean he wouldn't even look at her even once. Come on lah, she's like gazing at you and you two are singing a duet can't you just look at her in the eyes. And this whole thing is so obvious on TV and what's more on Live Earth. SOOO many people in the world are watching the obvious gestures of hers. I feel embarrassed for her, such an asshole man.


Chang Chen (Zhang Zhen)
In case you were wondering why I never put the picture of the Great Wall of China instead, there's always the bracketed name to remind you that C and Z makes quite a bit of difference. I think this guy is so sexy. Yeah. It's sexy. HOHOHO. He got this nomady and "haggard" kinda look which to me is so good-looking and sexy. Of course he is talented in acting. The people I mentioned are all talented in their specific fields ok. He likes Jamiroquai. Which is good. Hahaha. I read in nuyou that this writer worked with him for 3 days. After that, he even remember to call her up to wish her Happy Birthday. So is so freaking lucky man. I also want. -eyes turning green-

I can't remember other talented C people for now. The following D list is like so bloody long. Many of them have the same name too. Till then when I'm bored again.

Depapepe - Summer Parade

polar bear and poopoowalawala

I'm gonna write a story about polar bear and poopoowalawala. Poopoowalawala is a penguin. But actually those two animals don't live on the same pole? Do they? Maybe that explains the discomfort and annoyance that the polar bear feels eh. So Poopoowalawala was trying to be a smart alec and teach polar bear how to catch a fish cos he thinks he's the most suitable creature around to be teaching a "dumbass" polar bear. So poopoowalawala gives outrageous techniques and kept making the whole thing drag, cos he thinks it requires a lot of passing down of "knowledge" and technique. Poopoowalawala often gives rather erm, troublesome requests like asking the polar bear to do something about the melting ice? Which is rather beyond the reach of a polar bear cos it's more a the fault of human beings eh. Poopoowalawala thinks that you will need to take your whole lifetime to master the technique of catching a fish. It leaves the polar bear terribly bored. Zzzz...

When Will I See Your Face Again

this song is soo beautiful =)

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What if I just admit that I'm just plain lucky and stuff. Would you stop saying I'm like this despicable person who is a bloody pathological liar. What if I lose everything, would you be gloating deep inside about your triumph. I wish you could just let me be. I do not like to defend things that I shouldn't be defending for at all. It's nothing to be proud of and is nothing worth my effort to fight for. I seem to be going downhill nowadays, ain't your prophecy fufilled?

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I took the " handwriting personality " quiz on gURL.com
		my handwriting style is... sophisticated scribbler Your handwriting reveals you as a thoughtful, intellectual type who avoids fake people and places where there's lots of noise and crowds. Read more... What does your handwriting say about you?

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After watching the Bourne Ultimatum, my new aspiration is to be as intelligent as him. Aha. The movie was so exciting that we started to have "hallucinations" that we are like him too. Need to run for our life and take a police car and come out alive. I can't believe that so many adults ran around in the cinema after the movie started to get a better seat. Though I do agree the front seats sucks, but the sight of seeing ducking their heads and scattering around is funny. I wanna watch Good Will Hunting, it's really old but I just only bothered about it recently. I just realised Winona Ryder got many cool boyfriends. Tsk tsk tsk. There is a lizard living in my room currently. It's a small one that runs behind the photo frames. Damn disgusting.

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My eyeball hurts. I felt disgusted when I saw paper crumbling into powder when my finger attempts to touch it. The powder of paper I suppose looks very eeeky. It must have been the alkaline thingy from the batteries that leaked. That made me throw away a lot of stuff man. I saw my primary school compositions that were full of phrases that I copied from a model essay book. Ahaha. What sun blah blah and children with raven black hair. I wrote the word "grounded" without being marked wrong. I thought it wasn't a proper word to use. I almost slept while watching the national day parade. I think those pri sch kids are funny. Cos they simply got no idea what to do. They really just play man. haha.

SELFISH JEAN-Travis

Cheers
Thanks for everything
You hung me out by my heart
You're just so selfish jean
Yes you are

Hey you
Threw it all away
By holding everything in
Hey Jean don't rock the boat
When you can't swim

With a perfect understanding of the finer things in life
A quite alarming knack of knowing when to twist the knife
Oooooooooh
Selfish Jean

Here's to you
Who read everything
Left it out on the shelf
There's no one else to blame
Except yourself

Well a perfect combination of good etiquet and charm
You keep the chocolate biscuits wired to a car alarm
Oooooooooh
Selfish Jean

Well i'm standing on my own
And this house is not a home
It's so sad to see you go
Things are high, things are low
And it's good to know you know
If you've got nowhere to go
Well you could spend the night with me
There will be no guarantee that I'll be here

In the morning
Or any time that you call
I hear you snoring Jean
Through the wall

So hey
Here's to everything
To peace and love in our time
Ah Jean the slate is clean
I guess we're fine

Well I don't expect a miracle
Not asking you to change
If you can see me happy
Well just look the other way
Oooooooooh
Selfish Jean

Heeeaaaaaah
Selfish Jean

Jean
Oh yeah
Jean

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I can't sleep tonight
Everybody saying everything's alright
Still I can't close my eyes
I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning
I can't stand myself
I'm being held up by an invisible man
Still life on a shelf when
I got my mind on something else
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
It's so cold I can't sleep tonight
Everybody's saying everything's all right
Still I can't close my eyes
I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of the lights

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I wished Singapore had recycling lessons in school so that we know a correct way to help the Earth. And don't you ever dare to think about killing the polar bears and other artic animals ok. If Singapore really banned plastic bags, everyone would be forced to bring recyclable bags eh. HEHE. But actually the plastic bags have a lot of good uses like contaning vomits and smelly slippers.

Anyways, some people tend to see everything on one side. Why don't you consider the consequences of what you said? You've got all the people gathered on one side of the fence and threw the other one on the other side. Shouldn't you just remove the fence. Assumptions is the last thing you need in this kinda situation.

blah

My neck is very stiff at the moment. I think i suck in playing computer games. I don't really have the intention to study for chinese. I think I'll flunk all the papers. I feel like dropping school to be an entrepreneur or musician instead. Very unrealistic stuff there. I feel hungry and bloated at the same time. I eat a lot nowadays. I also managed to gain a lot of weight at the same time. I'm like in the fattest point in my life. I think Yu Aoi is a darn pretty person. DARN PRETTY. I like to look at her pictures a lot. I'm not being a lesbian. I just like looking at pretty stuff. And she got talent too. She got looks and talent. I think MTV movie awards kinda make no sense when you watch it on tv. Cos they tend to censor a lot of what they are saying. Sometimes you really cannot make out what they are saying cause the whole time you just hear -toooooot- so isn't it rather pointless? -tooooooooooooooooot-.

ancient creature

I managed to kill an ancient creature just now. When I fist saw it, it shitted on my bathroom rug with it's shit embedded in the fibres of the rug. It's black in colour and was so disgustingly obvious against the pale green. I quickly slammed the door and ran to get the baygon spray and I think I sprayed like 1/4 of it cos that creature had great determination survive. It was struggling till it flew up and knocked the wall and turned upside down. My whole bathroom reeked of baygon man. It was air pollution at its finest. That ancient ugly disgusting shitting creature is somewhere in the sewage. I hope it goes to heaven with all its friends and so I wouldn't have to kill anymore of them. But considering how they survived during the time that dinosaurs perish. I think they will stick around long after the day I go heaven.

bwalalala

The part above my ankle there kinda hurts now. I think I tied the skating shoes too tightly. My face is very itchy cos it is full of soon to be erupting pimples. I try my best not to itch it but it's itchy. I'm finally having my june break and I shall attempt to pack my room. The word I used was "attempt". Nah. I think I'll scratch my face. I think I maybe would queue for donuts one day. But it's two hours. I can scratch my face while queuing for it. Nah. I hate queuing up for stuff. I still can't believe Marilyn Manson is with Evan Rachel Wood. She is like 18 years younger and damn damn prettier than that warped guy. I also can't believe that John Mayer will go with Jessica Simpson. They just don't match.

I wish I was born in another climate. The weather is simply killing me. Sometimes I wish I could chop you into pieces and gobble you down. You bloody thing.

I'm DYING to go Japan man man man. I must at least go there once in my life man man man. I don't seem interested in anything else other than daydream of my trip to Japan.

drawings

It's a damn magnificent song. I think the song really connected to Oscar Wilde's the Happy Prince too. Cos this song is actually the song for this drama title is erm..The Happy Prince. Yeah. I think the story is lovely too. Touching and sad. Eh. Poignant. I've been finding this song for a trillion years. I think the story is sad. I'm like picturing the bird dying with the prince statue. It's sad. My vocabulary is very limited as is see myself uses the same few words over and over again. I feel dumb man.

I'm here to blog like after eons. I know not a lot of people will be reading this. But I would like to say I'LL MISS YOU PEOPLE. I think you should know who you are. The pj gang. MISS YOU ALL LOADS AND LOADS. I've been very fickle minded throughout this whole process of choosing schools and stuff. I kinda dislike myself for being like that, but I think I've come to a conclusion more or less. I just hope what I'm studying would be appealing enough for me to go through it for 3 years even if I have to face some really bad stuff and people like........... I'll make sure I'll never distance away and maintain our friendships for as long as I live.

HAHA

I'm not changing site anymore since blogger has decided to stop pissing me off. WAHAHAHA. A lot of trouble can be saved now. I've been thinking a lot about my choices these few days, I'm still unsure of where I wanna go. Submitting my choices does not seem to be the end of JAE at all. I have been disturbed a lot of times and questioned by people of the reasons behind the chocie that I make. Anyways, I watched Running with Scissors. I don't understand why it's M18. There's no nudity at all and the most is coarse language. Coarse language only get nc-16 at the most. I think it must be the mature theme on homosexuality then. But the movie is really non m18. The censors must have been very imaginative then. Tsk tsk. I bought the Pursuit of Happyness too. It's really nice man plus Will Smith's son is so cute with his afro man. It makes me realise that money is really important even though people say money is not everything those kinda bullshit. But money is EVERYTHING when you're in the pits.

hoho. I've moved to amother site. www.milkcarton.wordpress.com

I'm such a loser. It's a low day everyday. :(

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Yesterday I went for Japanese lessons. My new name is Cherry-lu. I tried very hard to suppress my laughter cos it isn't nice to laugh at the teacher's english pronunciation eh. Afterall she's a japanese and we may be sabotaging her language the same way. School is like school, with homework and pe. It's eh.. schoolish. I hate doing homework man and I feel stupid it's as if I know nothing. It's as if I never went through secondary education. Everyone else seems to know what they are doing, except me. I am starting to wonder if I ever take the O's at all. It seems like whatever I learnt in the pass has disapppeared during the holidays. I wanna change to wordpress but my only email address blocks their mails so I can't have an account. It's like damn troublesome to erm.. like set up another email add. I'm just lazy. "Lazy" is a song's title. AHAHA. So is "We are the pigs". AHAHAHA. I having a headache and got a puking feeling. I better to puke now.

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HOHOHO. i finally updated after eons. Now I really hope the o levels results would just pop out soon as possible. Without the results and stuff I can't really plan the route I want to take yet. I'm super uncertain what subjects and stuff to take. The things that I do have interest in does not happen to be my strongest subjects you see. Jc's lessons are really tough. I guess my brain was switched off most the time for biology lessons. I was only brain-awake when he showed the animation for erm.. was it protein synthesis? See. I'm not even sure what he's showing. Econs was tough for me to keep myself awake, her voice is so sleep-inducing man. I'm actually worried about my "future". It's gonna be tough wherever I go man. Orientation was fun but sadly I was ill(not physically). Yeah. =) I miss css lah. I miss 4/3 lah. I even miss band at times too. I miss the people. Sometimes I wish the word 'separation' never appeared in the dictionary.