liwee

This is dedicated to Ang Liwee. =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oJhxJSUMaPM

studying

I realised my face look horrendous especially around the t-zone area with enlarged pores and blackheads and pimples. Hopefully they don't turn into acne. I look an auntie. Ahahaha. Yeah. I do. Nevermind. I shall go running. Hopefully it help me curb my craziness and help me study better? Cos I go this lagging attitude for studying. Argh. Like now. I'm typing on this bloody thing instead of finishing my bloody chinese homework. And math. Just when I thought I know how to do the questions by myself. I got stuck. Oh ya. Running is of course to lose fat. Then maybe I won't have to worry about TAF next time. If only I can even wake myself up early to go run. Running alone will be scary. I lost my dolphin book clip. I'm depressed. I'm depressed when I lose thing. Losing things is very traumatic for me. I can't ponder on how to find the things I lost for the whole day. Until my brain can't intepret other messages and information until I find my thing. Or until I think of a way to get over it. I must be responsible over my stuff man. And stop losing things. It's really depressing. I understand how stupid it is to be depressed over some dolphin plastic thingy. But it means alot to me. Especially when it's lost. After O's I decided to work and wahahaha. So I'll have money to spend. Then maybe I can buy something from agnes b. That'll be so ultra cool. Being rich is good. At least you get to have one more way to destress yourself, which is retail therapy lah. Not everybody gets to have retail therapy you know. It's only those bloody rich people. Rich... If I was rich. I would drop out of school and be home-schooled instead. Or maybe go to an international school. But I'm not. So I'm stuck in my current school. I want Satoshi Tsumabuki to hug me now. And tell me it's all gonna work out. I'm dreaming. I wish he could teach me math too. If only he could.

muse festival

Band is finally over. No more complaining about how sian band can be or how much i don't feel like stepping into the dusty stuffy bomb shelter. It's all over. No more shaking like mad when I'm ask to play alone. No more embracing of saliva on my skirt. It's all gone. I really have a cool section. Ahahahaha. Except the part where they sabotage me and stuff. At least we are all so daring to go mad together. And i love that. =) So now the mood for studying is supposed to be setting in. But I don't feel much. I owe tons of chinese homework which needa be completed all by monday. Or else I'll just go kill myself. I suck man. And I needa tons of chem tys stuff too. I should be shot man. And I've got tuition work to do. I should be slaughtered man. I suddenly miss that Satoshi Tsumabuki video clip sooo much. it's so funny. I watched it three times only. And now it's taken off. Aaaaah~ I wanna play arcade man. If only I noticed the pop and music. Aaah. Then I wouldn't hit the drums until my arm ached. So wasted.

music

I suddenly miss all my old music tracks that I downloaded last time. Whenever I needed to forfeit those music files, I almost breakdown. I miss all those tracks. I wish all the files would recover by themselves. I miss them so much so much. And with the savings I have, I won't be able to buy all the cds to recover those tracks.

aaah

One more week to go. And band would finally end. From my secondary school life. Tomorrow is so gonna be sucky. With a math test I haven't really studied for and lots of work to do which I didn't touch. As yesterday was a super long day with remedial in the morning and band and then tuition for like 4 hours instead. We did paper one of emath. There's like so many things I dunno how to do. How am I gonna pass my a math test tomorrow like this. How I wish time would freeze so that I kind save up all these time for future uses instead of wasting it now. I so wanna die man. I feel so dead for everything. My palm is aching from the playing of traditional drums and now I can hardly write without feeling serious tension in my muscles. I should be doing my work now but instead I'm typing in this thing. What the hell am I thinking. I just remembered there's this video on Satoshi Tsumabuki attending some entertainment show. Which is like so bloody funny. I could still laugh after watching it for the third time. It's sick and hilarious. The host is so ahahahahha. And Satoshi Tsumabuki is so cute. Aaaah..