studying

I realised my face look horrendous especially around the t-zone area with enlarged pores and blackheads and pimples. Hopefully they don't turn into acne. I look an auntie. Ahahaha. Yeah. I do. Nevermind. I shall go running. Hopefully it help me curb my craziness and help me study better? Cos I go this lagging attitude for studying. Argh. Like now. I'm typing on this bloody thing instead of finishing my bloody chinese homework. And math. Just when I thought I know how to do the questions by myself. I got stuck. Oh ya. Running is of course to lose fat. Then maybe I won't have to worry about TAF next time. If only I can even wake myself up early to go run. Running alone will be scary. I lost my dolphin book clip. I'm depressed. I'm depressed when I lose thing. Losing things is very traumatic for me. I can't ponder on how to find the things I lost for the whole day. Until my brain can't intepret other messages and information until I find my thing. Or until I think of a way to get over it. I must be responsible over my stuff man. And stop losing things. It's really depressing. I understand how stupid it is to be depressed over some dolphin plastic thingy. But it means alot to me. Especially when it's lost. After O's I decided to work and wahahaha. So I'll have money to spend. Then maybe I can buy something from agnes b. That'll be so ultra cool. Being rich is good. At least you get to have one more way to destress yourself, which is retail therapy lah. Not everybody gets to have retail therapy you know. It's only those bloody rich people. Rich... If I was rich. I would drop out of school and be home-schooled instead. Or maybe go to an international school. But I'm not. So I'm stuck in my current school. I want Satoshi Tsumabuki to hug me now. And tell me it's all gonna work out. I'm dreaming. I wish he could teach me math too. If only he could.