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I've prepared myself mentally for today's event last night. Thought over my results. My intuitions of my results are usually quite accurate. Like math. I know I couldn't make it and I did not make it. Nevermind. This is not the end. And I don't have anymore time to waste too. I need a grip on myself. All these are just words. Words that carry to value at all unless I put them into action. Been watching a new drama lately. About this blind girl joining this piano competition. Some very complicated and weird at times story. My bad command of english simply can't put it into words. Then she began talking about darkness. And how we should know be afraid of darkness cos it's like some comfort blanket that embraces us in times of sorrow, despair and misery. And I find it rather true. Many times we cry in the dark in order to cut off connections with the world outside. Engulf in darkness where vast amounts of negative emotions are allowed. Crap man. If it was Mrs Tham reading this I bet she gave a bloody tick.